Everything I ask for
Wisher
Yumi Hanasaki
[♥]{`Yumi`}[♥]
Age: [Hoping] 14
Birthday: May 18
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On Sunday, June 28, 2009 at 2:19 PM
Reaching up for no man's land
To take a breath and take a chance
I walk a thousand nights to change the world
Where to go? When to stop?
Who to trust? What to say?
Found them all, just need someone to share
It`s now in the dusk every day to everyone
Ain't so strong, I ain't so strong to go
Living in life as it's not the way to live
I wish you could hear me say that I miss you
Why were we there back to back?
Why were we there face to face?
I must be the light when you're in the dark
If you lose me somewhere, and your tears are in the air
I will ring a bell until you feel me by your side
Looking up into the sky, looking for the reason
Why I'm here, and why you can't be here
Who's to hate? Who's to blame?
Who's to hurt? Who's to love?
Who decides? Why we can't we be the same?
Try to believe walking down the lonesome road
Ain't so far, I ain't so far from you
Staying the way you are means solitude
I wish you were here and shook off my fear
Why were we there back to back?
Why were we there face to face?
I must be the light when you're in the dark
If I lose you somewhere, and I'm still hanging in there
I will ring a bell until you feel me by your side
What has been in the mix too long?
There's the peace when you`re at war
Heads or tails, You and I
Light and dark, Ups and downs
What has been in the mere goal? What's there to divide us?
If you're hurt, cry and say can't you see your might of the heart
Why were we there back to back?
Why were we there face to face?
I must be the light when you're in the dark
If you lose me somewhere, and your tears are in the air
I will ring a bell until you feel me by your side
On Thursday, June 25, 2009 at 2:36 PM
I know you are avoiding me,coward. I hate you now and there is no way for you to make me take those words back unless you kill yourself.The best solution is for you to forget that i ever existed and i have already started on that.Who are you?Your name,I've forgotten.How we became friends and what happened,what we did,I have forgotten.The only thing that remains,is my hatred for you and why i hated you.This will only remain a few more days,weeks at most.I shall not remember them until i have forgiven you,how?How you say?I dont know that either so dont ask me!
at 2:30 PM
Okay.I OFFICIALLY did the stupidest thing anyone could have done!I asked him to look at that post i wrote,and it was like some sorta indirect confession?I was like so afraid he would hate me so i told him its another person and i was not referring to him!But he doesnt care does he?When i said something like 'when you return,i wont be here,but so what?It doesnt matter does it?' he said something like 'I love talking to you,and i would try to talk to you as much as possible so dont say or think something like that'
Hah.Its all just a lie.A big fat lie,im telling you this.
Everyone lies to me,Why cant you guys just stop lying already?Would it kill you?So what if you're serious?I dont care,i wont even say 'as long as you wont be hurt,i am willing to be hurt for you' at you not any more,i treasured you so much,you didnt appreciate it and made fun of me when i said my heart was gonna burst any moment!So what the EFFING hell was WITH THAT?!You think its that fun?Hell yeah,i tell you its not fun,not fun at all,did you know?I spent the days waiting for you,praying that you are fine,did you know?You never bothered to care did you?NEVER!NOT ONCE!You never even bothered to ask me 'is something wrong?' when i was acting so differently,you never cared,you never bothered to find out and know that the 'Mature' person that you love talking to is not me..not me at all..i just did that so you wouldnt hate me..you wouldnt hate me..but you never cared!Never.
Im ending this,I will give you ONE LAST CHANCE.If you never bothered to check this blog or my attitude,this is over,we will never be the best of friends again,i will never ever open up my heart to you again.I have been hurt enough,not just you!That effing idiot,that moron too,that faking male too,everyone who hurt me,i said i wont open my heart anymore,but you guys always make me believe you,taking advantage of my naive nature?My soft heartedness?Hey,this is the last point,i had enough of this hurting.You think i dont feel pain?No,i do feel pain.I choose the people to love,the people to hate,the people to allow into my heart,but every single one of you never bothered to step deeper into my heart,afraid that i would kill you?Lets say,i trusted you.You never loved me,not even as a friend,you wont even say 'I missed you' no,you wont say that to me will you?You say that to everyone but me dont you?This naivete is gonna be ended soon..your feelings will be shown soon,your true nature too.
This world,is nothing more than a dark dark hell.
On Monday, June 22, 2009 at 9:01 PM
Watch your DIET!!
Everyday only take in 1800 Calories(Female)/2000 Calories(Male) to maintain your current weight,if you wanna lose weight,take lesser calories!More calories will make you gain weight.To lose 1kg a week,you have to burn off 1000 Calories each day.When you wake up Drink a BIG cup of warm water first because your body did not get any water over the night when you slept.
Breakfast
Do not take heavy meals!But light and healthy ones,DO NOT eat oily foods,meat & alternatives!This includes milk.The best is fruits with a cup of water!Bread is also fine.
Lunch & Dinner
Eat fruits first!Followed by soup,If any and then lastly,your meal.
*Note:If after your meal,you feel sleepy it means that your meal is not a healthy meal.(Particularly if you have not done anything much in the day!!!!!!)
*SPECIAL NOTE:Buns and breads for breakfast all the time is not good!As you know,buns have a sparkly outer skin right?In order for it to look so pretty,chicken fats are added!
Calories List of some foods;
----Names-----------------Calories---
Mcdonalds deluxe breakfast = 1140
Chicken Ceasar Salad = 990
Tuna Sandwich(Regular Size)= 1420
Double Beef & Bacon Burger = 1620
Pizza Hut's Pasta Chicken = 620 (Per 1/4 Serving)
Domino's Large Crust = 820 (Per 2 Pieces)
Fried Chicken Drumstick = 400 (Per piece)
French Fries = 440 (Small Size)
White Rice = 140 (One Small bowl)
Cheese Cake = 320 (One Piece)
Chocolate Sundae = 320 (One Cup)
Milk Shake = 2310(Per 900ML)
Orange/Apple Juice = 110
Starbuck's Cafe Latte = 220
Chicken Breast(Boiled,100g)= 140
Oil = 140 (Per tsp)
Salmon(100G) = 200
Celery(Boiled 100g) = 20
Kale = 20
Chinese White Cabbage = 10
Apple = 60
Mango = 140
Sugar = 16 (Per 1/3 tsp)
Rock Melon = 80 (Per piece)
Chicken Egg YOLK = 270 (Per yolk)
Duck Egg YOLK = 620 (Per yolk)
*When eating,try to boiled/steam/braise your food instead of deep frying.When eating chicken,remove the skin.
In your salad,you can try putting Italian Vinegar instead of your mayo or thousand island sauces.
EXERCISE and the amount of CALORIES they BURN OFF
Name Calories
Cycling = -200/hr
Dance = -230/hr
Jogging = -350/hr
Yoga = -200/hr
Swimming = -300/hr
Tai Chi = -200/hr
*Think before you take a can of soft drink because you have to jog for 1hr to burn of all the calories you taken in from that can!Sleeping burns of more calories so those who sleep well tend to be healthier and slimier than the rest!
*When you eat,Remember to eat slowly take at least 20 minutes as that is the minimum amount of time before your stomach will send a signal to your brain to say that you are full!
Did you know?That those who are overweight not just have a risk of being obese?But also a risk of getting cancers?Because their immune system will become weaker and they are more prone to being sick!
On Saturday, June 20, 2009 at 7:53 PM
There is only one thing i wanted to shout at you;I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU ALOT!I TOTALLY LOVE YOU!!;And to repeat this;I LOVE YOU!!I LOVE YOU!!I LOVE YOU!!I LOVE YOU!!I LOVE YOU!!
Everyday..but i cant..not anymore..for you have forsaken me,for you will never return to that position you once held dear for you no longer have the same feelings i had for you!I so very much wanted to treasure you..but i could never hold you closer than to where i could touch you,i merely wished for our souls to touch,but yet it would never come true..it will never ever come true,for you have never taken me as more than just a lovely,kind young lady whom you loved,for that fleeting moment only..All that remains of me,is similar to that of a kitten abandoned in the cold,white snow;
On Thursday, June 18, 2009 at 10:14 PM
bad bad girl today..
Shit!Why am i always like this?!I always lose the precious friends that i want to keep by my side!I just cant keep them by my side!I tried and tried!I just cant change the way i act towards them..even though i so very much wanted to be kind,loving and caring..just because of my looks..being teased i had enough of THAT!I tried and tried but i have to let my stress out some times dont i?IM A FREAKING HUMAN TOO!STOP TREATING ME LIKE AN ANGEL!EVEN ANGELS GET STRESS!PLEASE JUST UNDERSTAND THIS F*CKED UP SIMPLE LOGIC!WHY CANT YOU?!Even though i treated you all as part of my life as part of my fragments..you all just simply kick me out of your lives..I tried to talk to you but you all always just..leave me behind..fine!I cant go out with you all that much!But have you ever THOUGHT;THAT I GO OUT USING MY MONEY?!NOT GETTING FROM MY PARENTS?!YOU GUYS GO BOWLING OR WATCH MOVIE BUT I DONT HAVE THE MONEY TO GO!THAT DOESNT MEAN WE CANT ARRANGE SOME OTHER ACTIVITY!
I really really loved you guys..you guys just wont help me out in changing..will you help?I asked but no one took me seriously..I WAS SERIOUS DAMN IT!I WAS SERIOUS! T~T
IF I SAID THIS TO YOUR FACE I WOULD BE CRYING YOU KNOW THAT?!
no one cares..its been like this since forever..even though i tried to keep being nice to you all but you guys just treat me as a boring person..does anyone even care to ask 'Are you alright?' when i seemed so fragile..when i did not feel well..IT WAS ALWAYS ME!ME!ASKING THIS!Why cant you all just change and ask me FOR ONCE?!
I HATE THIS I HATE THIS!I HATE THIS ALOT!
i just wanted someone to know that i clearly existed..i even treated everyone equally..but the rest of you just wont treat me the same as you treat your best friends..let me tell you this;BEST FRIENDS WILL BETRAY YOU TOO!
I dont care if you guys read this FREAKING POST AND GET ANGRY!Because I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS!I GO TO YOUR BLOGS,READ YOUR POSTS ABOUT FIGHTS OR SUCH..AND I BE NICE TO YOU!YOU ARE ALLOWED TO USE '!' WHY CANT I?!I AM EQUALLY STRESSED AS YOU!YOU KNOW MY BURDENS?MY STRESS?NOOOOOO!BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT ME..
i just really wanted that warmth that someone cared and would never leave me out of conversations..did you ever felt that?
Maybe i should just change once and for all..maybe i should just be back to who i was..the stubborn,bold and child-like girl i was..but its too painful..IT WAS TOO PAINFUL!
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Fine..i wont change but i am still changing dont expect me to do anything you wont like because i will at certain times,even if i know that you hate it,because even if i try not to i will still make mistakes and do such things,im not a perfection!I am just a normal HUMAN!
-Fine;i apologise if my post has pointed to anyone indirectly but that doesnt mean you can get angry at me because i did not mention any specific names and this post is just for me to spit all the truths and stress i had been pushing down in my heart!-
On Wednesday, June 17, 2009 at 5:48 PM
STRESS RELIEVING
so time for relieving STRESS!!!Whhhhhaaaaattttttt issss goiiinnnggggg onnnn heeerrrreeee?!There is only one thing i feel
Loneliness
I hate being alone in the dark
It makes me feel like im abandoned
Dont leave me please for i am already forsaken
All i wanted was for you to love me,hug me but yet everyone betrayed me
They threw me into the dark abyss of hell
I shouted and prayed for help yet..no one came
I couldnt even see the stars,i couldnt even tell if it is day or night..
Do you know this feeling?
I only wished to leave this dark dark lonely hell..
And one day..to see him again,is it so difficult?
No..yet no one comes for me..
Waiting..always waiting until that one faithful day..
I'll always be waiting..crying,fading away..my existence will come to be treasured won't it?
On Tuesday, June 16, 2009 at 5:04 PM
Hey all of you!This is really really important so read it..
What is the definition of ;
1.Cool
2.Boring
3.Ugly
4.Pretty
5.Handsome
6.Cute
7.Stupid
8.Love
9.Hate
There are lots more too..but let me tell you this..
There is none!
Everyone is all of the 9 above yet they still label other people with that..Do you know the true definition?No one does!So dont use them so randomly..Do you know,if you use them so randomly..you can never take the hurt you inflicted on the one who received this words?I know more than you do..for i have received hurts from those words..
"I hate you"
"You're so stupid"
"I wish i never met you"
Why do you think accidents or betrayal happens?If that person is hurt enough..he will just do something thats out of his control..Murder..Betrayal..And that?That happens because of what he had felt before..but he is also in the wrong too..but if we treated him a little bit better he would never have done this things..I repeat..Words said will never be taken back,Hurts inflicted will never be taken back..Wounds on the skin heals..but not those that scarred the hearts,our hearts are the core of who we are,who we were and who we will be!So treat everything with care..with love..treat them softly..no matter what!
On Monday, June 15, 2009 at 8:21 PM
How..i'm caught in a big mess i guess..?Maybe its none of my business but they're both my precious dear friends..
Girl A seems to have misunderstood Girl B,i hope that Girl A was not making an Assumption..because words said are never to be taken back..I love them both so much it hurts me to see them quarreling..i pray that they will patch things up and i hope Girl A and Girl B realise their mistakes and try to change it if they know it..
AND NO im not trying to be a good girl or acting mature..
On Sunday, June 14, 2009 at 9:35 PM
IMPORTANT 2009 [1]
Hey guys!As some of you might have already found out...IM BANNEEEEEDDD!!(NOOOOOO.....-Crys-)I promise,i'll miss you guys alot!
And oh,READ THIS! :
If you pass by any bookstores and you happen to spot a book called ERAGON by PAOLINI CHRISTOPHER,please sms me or call me!I would appreciate it if you manage to contact me before you leave that store and i'll ask you to get it for me if i still DO need it!
Find out my contact no from Wee Kee,Mervin,Azura,Ferlyn,QiuHeng(Shud have),Sinyi Or Firdaus!
Thanks!
Love you guys so TOTALLY!
Nevermind!The Issue is settled so thanks if you guys have been looking out for me!
On Saturday, June 13, 2009 at 9:16 PM
Wishlist!~
Get good Results and get to 2 pure sciences!
To stay forever with her BFFs
To wish everyone has good health :)
Nintendo DS!
Try Cosplay once!
Her Fairies!~
ZHStephy
Minxuan
Jobina
Joey
Minhui
Ariel
Charmaine
Denise
Qiuheng
Claudia
Jingwen
Syafiqahh
Hannah
Sinyi
Adawiyah
Emily
Syafiq
Sharifah
Alicia-Clarinet
Syaza
Alicia
Link
Link
Link
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Wishing well
By title
Watch your DIET!!
bad bad girl today..
STRESS RELIEVING
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