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Wisher Yumi Hanasaki [♥]{`Yumi`}[♥] Age: [Hoping] 14 Birthday: May 18 If you don't like me..Just LEAVE. But if you like me,leave me a TAG! Alrighttos, Currently in.. Woodlands Ring Secondary :)	You know i like you. Yes you do. But why are you torturing me? Asking me questions that hurts to answer.. You hate me don't you? Avoid me then.Don't be kind anymore You're just killing me here. Yes you are.You just don't know. Maybe you don't even care! I don't know why i fell for you in the first place. You're hurting me,torturing me on purpose. If that is so,why don't i just like someone who will definitely love me back? Why am i bearing this hurt? I find it oh so difficult to hate you.. But why are you taking that for a weakness? Yes it is.But you didn't have to do that! Oh oh oh!I hate you so much.Yet i still can't truly hate you. Oh god,What should i do? Maybe i should tell that guy? Maybe i should like him. He won't hurt me would he? BETTER STILL. I won't love anymore.No no. Not anymore. Everyone hates me when i love them so much. Yarhs,i'm not as beautiful as the others,but did you have to do that? I hate you oh so much!But i still cant truly hate you. What is it about you that i find so attractive? I even forsaken my sleep to talk with you. I even took all the loneliness i felt ALONE. You know how i felt? You did nothing!Nothing at all. I wouldn't tell you because you're bound to feel that i'm just a weakling. But let me freaking tell you this : I AM NOT A WEAKLING. I know myself. I know i love you. I know i can't hate you truly. But i will learn to hate you. No matter how much it takes. Even if this life of mine is gone. I swear i will hate you. It brings me too much hurt to love you. I loved you.. But now i shall forget.. Neh?Isn't that the easiest way? I loved you..You took me for granted Now i'll disappear entirely From your life.You won't see me again. Bye,the one i loved. On Monday, August 31, 2009 at 7:51 PM Okays..Im so gonna arrange with my friends to go to Sembawang Park during the one week holiday at the end of this term!Just relaxing and slacking ;D imma take lots of pictureees! So this are the people who MIGHT be coming -Steph -Azura The Details... It's a picnic so bring so snacks too! Bring money!Lots of money ;D abt $15 so we can go rent bikes. We're taking the MRT or BUS. The date and time not set. DONTS- BRING TEXT BOOKS! FORGET TO BRING MONEY GET LOST FORGET ABOUT ME T_T (lols this is random) SULK.BE UNHAPPY. THESE ARE NOT ALLOWED!!! DO's- BE HAPPY REMEMBER TO BRING EVERYTHING NEEDED! STICK WITH THE GROUP :D On Friday, August 28, 2009 at 6:30 PM I'm hating her..Every minute,every second,Im hating her more. I've never met her.I've never talked to her. But i know she's a two faced demon. Her blog,And my friend's blog. They dont match. My friend tells her true feelings. She tells her true feelings. But she only talks about good things. My friend talks about everything she feels. She's a two faced demon because... She treats you like the cutest thing if you dont defy her,she gets arrogant. She treats you like crap if you defy her or simply tell her facts about her. I hate people like her.I dont know her.But i can tell everything about her. Im not a mind reader,no.But we have all noticed her doings have we not? She said my friend stole her friends.Have she ever thought this way? Why did they leave her? Why did they start ignoring her? When did they start getting tired of her arrogance? When did they start going over to the others? Did she treat them equally? Did she show everyone her true self? No.You know?The ones i love most is also under her manipulation.But i cant simply say "Hey,please ignore her,she's a arrogant b**". No i cant.They'll think im unreasonable.But i dont want them to be hurt.. I know this "Your feud,dont drag me in.My feud,I dont drag you in." That's part of me.But i also have this in me "If i know how cruel she is,I will try everything to help you avoid getting hurt" Because i simply love you guys. I dont care.If you hate me,i still dont want you to be hurt.Getting betrayed is the worse thing.Maybe that's what shaped her into the person she is right now..I dont know anymore..But i dont want you to be hurt.. On Thursday, August 27, 2009 at 7:55 PM I've decided,I wont tell you my feelings But i wont hide them I'll just forget them.Entirely. I'll just stay by your side Just as a friend.So please dont end up liking me. I know that wont happen.You've already killed whatever love i had for you. In my heart.I know that you still love her.Cause you said that... Its like she's at the back of your mind and no matter what..you still think of her. I've done my best to try to ignore you. But i cant,can i? No.I cant.So i'll choose to help you. Forget her, or get back with her.I'll help you. Try remembering this : Yumi's here for you.No matter what. I'll be your friend.Truly..From now on. The feelings i had?Thrown into the abyss.. But maybe..They are just tucked away somewhere in my heart. Waiting for someone to unleash that powerful feeling. I wish the one who does will love me more than anyone will. That he wont betray me.That he wont hurt me. But love isn't perfect after all..So i'll bear with this hurt until.. Until..that person for me appears. at 7:33 PM 'Stop being kind to me!You're killing me here!You're kind yet you dont love me..Are you trying to kill me?Dont be kind..Please..!' This is how im feeling.You,you the one whom i love.You are betraying my love aren't you? You said im cute,you said im good.You said im kind. But you never meant them did you? I hate you so much.So so much. Why did you have to be kind to me? So much that i fell in love? This love is wrong.So very wrong You dont love me,so please stop being so kind. You give off this charm that makes me attracted. That two faced demon loves you too. You dont know her.Not her.You never will.Cause you love her. So you wont take me seriously.But i really did loved you. Why?Why are you always like this?I know you're kind.. But why did you have to be so extremely kind? Even to the point that you wake me up kindly. Even to the point that you dont say im ugly. Are you luring me into the deadly trap you have set up? I dont want to..but im already caught in it. I'm just like a little bunny,catch in the Tiger's trap.. I hate this.. On Wednesday, August 26, 2009 at 7:40 PM last night SMSed ZH like siaos lols.. Okays so today only have 1 word to describe - INCREDIBLE! But one thing is SCHOOL WAS BORING AS USUAL!! Hahas After school i came home as fast as i could,took my lunch and started baking cookkiiieeeesss! So its for the 3 little birthday babes: 24th August Yvonne Diyana 25th August Stephanie :D tomorrow i'll give it to them And by special request,Azura has some too.She said she wanted to try -.- omggss!Okays i added too much sugar so its ultra sweet -.- OMGS!But i think they like larhs..we all like sweet things :D But not too sweet.This sweet is probably slightly sweeter than M&M chocolate nias!Okays..Buh baii !! <33 On Tuesday, August 25, 2009 at 6:56 PM Guys!!OMG i just bumped into an ULTRA FUN GAME!To me that is..its like Dragons,you have to steal the eggs from a cave and get people to visit your link until they hatch,then same things happens until they mature then you can breed them!OMG!! So visit MY dragon eggs! PLEASE VISIT!THEY WILL DIE IF THEY DONT HATCH SOON! >:L http://dragcave.net/view/hA6q http://dragcave.net/view/QQ9B http://dragcave.net/view/NooV http://dragcave.net/view/h5FH http://dragcave.net/view/BCR8 http://dragcave.net/view/OmHt http://dragcave.net/view/Rebh On Monday, August 17, 2009 at 5:51 PM NOT FOR MINORS TO READ!LOTS OF VULGAR LANGUAGES!!! ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* ********************************************************* Ok,im FUCKING pissed off right now.My brother's auditionSEA couple, ---xZ , Asked my brother to go to Free 3 room 60 at 6.50pm. Then he entered the room and you know what that B* said?She said she cant see him!When she could!What an ass!Then my bro exited the room and rejoined it again.She still continued with her crap 'where?Infront of me is Auditionrock la!" and such!So i typed something at her "Dont act larhs" "You blind har?" and of course i wanted to type "Fing b*" but my brother asked me to mind my own business so here i am blogging to all you people.If any of you act like this B change NOW!And i just went to look at what she said. She still put up that act and my brother got so pissed off he exited the room FOR GOOD!Finally!And when he was playing alone,she whispered to him saying what she cant see him really and such.Then i went to check again.She said its a 'Joke'!Then i dont know what happened after that,then his friend called lorhs,i gave him the freakish phone and i saw what he was doing.He was playing with that B!AGAIN!WHAT THE F* LARHS! I ask him why he wont break,you know what the f* he said? "All my couple break with me,she very kind lerh larhs!She never break with me leh!" See?My brother so kind right?My tolerance level is usually VERY HIGH and you know why i got so FING pissed off?She didnt do it just once,she did it more than 5 times!Hah,she just wants a couple to humiliate?F OFF!My brother aint that kinda guy!Go find some guy who wants you just for your fucking character's look!You know what?I bet my FRIENDS LOVE SOMEONE UGLIER THAN YOU BUT KINDER THAN YOU!FING B*!What?So?This is MY blog!Don't like it?F* off! *********************************************************** ********************************************************* ********************************************************* I apologize very sincerely for my crude language and anyone i might have offended while you have read this post,but as i have warned,it is not for MINORS!That means below 16-18.Unless you are very used to Vulgar languages which i believe is not the case and it is for me because my classmates are swearing just for fun and thus,i am very FAMILIAR with crude languages. On Sunday, August 16, 2009 at 6:59 PM Haiiz..My class is made up of 3 types of people - 1) The type that sides with the more popular people,if the popular ones hate you,they hate you. 2)Only your friends when you are of use to them 3)"I dont care if they hate you,its their business" But most of them?Under group 1 and 2.Only a few under 3. Me? I am under 3 and 4- Act as always,you have a grudge against me?Take it out,openly,dont play tricks!Count not on your bloody friends,count on yourself. My style is if you cant do it yourself,dont get your friends,cause its useless.You wanna fight?I wont fight.Take it to the court,who cares?I always keep the evidences,dumbass.I do what i think is right,no comments please.You comment?I think its true,i follow,if not,i dont.Simple as that. Simplicity is the best thing on earth,Dont go 'Oh simple idiot' or 'Complicated stuffs are the best' Cause you know?The best kinda technology people love is - Functional,Good and simple to understand. And that's it.DUMB ASSES.You.Yes you,dont understand?Its either you're too stupid or complicated.To me?My blog is about 2 things - SIMPLICITY and of course,ME!ME ME! On Friday, August 7, 2009 at 8:33 PM To the 'Passer-by' at steph's blog. this is what that clueless girl said: 20 Jul 09, 19:41 PASSER-BY-N: hi er.. 20 Jul 09, 19:41 PASSER-BY-N: u're such a pig.. 20 Jul 09, 19:41 PASSER-BY-N: a fatty.. 20 Jul 09, 19:41 PASSER-BY-N: everyone hates u.. 20 Jul 09, 19:41 PASSER-BY-N: show off.. 20 Jul 09, 19:42 PASSER-BY-N: u *... 20 Jul 09, 19:42 PASSER-BY-N: bi.t.ch. 20 Jul 09, 19:42 PASSER-BY-N: u're useless. 20 Jul 09, 19:42 PASSER-BY-N: u go after guys 20 Jul 09, 19:42 PASSER-BY-N: but they'll all say u look like **. 20 Jul 09, 19:43 PASSER-BY-N: change urself.. 20 Jul 09, 19:43 PASSER-BY-N: or noone will ever like u.. 20 Jul 09, 19:43 PASSER-BY-N: cut down on ur food! 20 Jul 09, 19:43 PASSER-BY-N: ur food are like 2x of soneeft. 20 Jul 09, 19:43 PASSER-BY-N: i'm in the same class as u two. 20 Jul 09, 19:44 PASSER-BY-N: once i see u two i feel like puking 20 Jul 09, 19:44 PASSER-BY-N: soneeft isnt that worse. u;re the terrible one 20 Jul 09, 19:44 PASSER-BY-N: u eat 2x more than soneeft. 20 Jul 09, 19:44 PASSER-BY-N: no not 2 20 Jul 09, 19:44 PASSER-BY-N: 4times. 20 Jul 09, 19:44 PASSER-BY-N: she ate quite little. 20 Jul 09, 19:45 PASSER-BY-N: at least she went for nutriton 20 Jul 09, 19:45 PASSER-BY-N: u dun 20 Jul 09, 19:45 PASSER-BY-N: u wanna stay fat 20 Jul 09, 19:45 PASSER-BY-N: so stay fat and let people hate u 20 Jul 09, 19:45 PASSER-BY-N: FATTY BOM BOM! And so this is what i said : \Passer by,do you have nothing better to do?I know she's cute,you dont have to emphasize it,if you're not cute,dont be jealous -.- everyone is pretty in a way!So stop emphasizing on other's flaws.so what if she's not that tall?You ever heard of the word 'PETITE'? No?That means your english sucks,so you cant be in her class and if you wanna battle about english?Feel free to challenge ME. Then she said this: stephanie just sux to the core.yumi, dun try to show off, i noe ur english sux . i dun mind challenging you . i got top in the class for english .she's just a short freaking fat idiot . at least i am alot slimmer than her . a least lighter and taller than her,this will be the thing i do when i am free . And i said this : Hnn?So what if you're taller than her?She's cute the way she is,except i dont really approve of her diet -.- and tall girls aint that good,i know that cause im tall.ALOT taller than you im sure.And if you're so free,why dont you go study?Dont even try saying my english sucks because i know most of my words,except perverted words.Dont try to please yourself by looking at people who are probably lower than you(which in this case she is not) cause thats what cowards would do.And did you know?She can find the IP trackers to track you down and sue you.She has the rights and all the evidences here.So you're just cornering yourself. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- And im DEAD SERIOUS about the part where she can hire PROFESSIONAL IP TRACKERS and track that 'passer-by' down and sue that person.Steph has every right and of course she has the evidence and witnesses,i am one witness thats for sure,and as for evidence?Even if she's deleted it,it cant be deleted from this post unless i delete this post,even if i got hacked,i have the evidence backed up in my laptop,even if my comp reformat, i have it printed out,so im ready for this case anytime.You're just cornering yourself,who ever you might be,you're just seriously cornering yourself. And you practically told me who you are.. Same class as steph,And top in english eh? Now all we gotta know is if you have a grudge against her and if you do that's probably you,but i wont just believe you like this as you can just be an imposter framing this mess on someone. On Saturday, August 1, 2009 at 10:16 PM	Wishlist!~ Get good Results and get to 2 pure sciences! To stay forever with her BFFs To wish everyone has good health :) Nintendo DS! Try Cosplay once!	Her Fairies!~ ZH Stephy Minxuan Jobina Joey Minhui Ariel Charmaine Denise Qiuheng Claudia Jingwen Syafiqahh Hannah Sinyi Adawiyah Emily Syafiq Sharifah Alicia-Clarinet Syaza Alicia Link Link Link Link	Wishing well	By title By month February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 August 2010
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